After Shocks

It is today exactly a week since the day we lost the baby. There are no obvious physical effects except the slight residual spotting from the after effects of the D&C. Emotionally, I am still quietly grieving. I do try to maintain a cheery outlook among friends. But deep inside I am still feeling the loss, specially when most of my closest friends with me over the weekend had their babies with them.

I am particularly clingy to hubby these days, not so much as demanding attention, but just always wanting to be near him, for comfort. Even if it is just having him by my side or him holding my hand. Maybe it is because he is the only person who truly knows how I am feeling and hurting inside. And I just need to have that understanding now, even when it is just a quiet look in his eyes and a smile of encouragement for me.